爱到底

我曾怀疑
你在不在我的怀里
为何幸福
你会哭泣
不忍相爱结果是你
失去自己
曾有一度
让你离去
风风雨雨
爱又让我们在一起
我知道
你受了委屈
不能否认
你我原本太多不同
就像日夜擦身而过
用一生去寻刹那的梦
我已决心爱到底
决心不回去
就算一步
就踏进地狱
今生我决不负你
不负你一句
就算你会离去
我 我爱你
我曾怀疑
你在不在我的怀里
为何幸福
你会哭泣
不忍相爱结果是你
失去自己
曾有一度
让你离去
风风雨雨
爱又让我们在一起
我知道
你受了委屈
不能否认
你我原本太多不同
就像日夜擦身而过
用一生去寻刹那的梦
我已决心爱到底
决心不回去
就算一步
就踏进地狱
今生我决不负你
不负你一句
就算你会离去
我 我爱你
我已决心爱到底
决心不回去
就算一步
就踏进地狱
今生我决不负你
不负你一句
就算你会离去
我 我爱你

i simply felt that this songs speaks from my heart.. another great one from 庾澄庆 :)
have been bearing with the sleepless nites, really exhausts me out & sets me thinking abt everything that had happen in life

in the nite i ask myself
why did i get married so young? NOT THAT I REGRET IT
will i blame myself or others in the future? NOT THAT I REGRET MY DECISION
will this baby become a burden of mine? NOT THAT IM BLAMING IT FOR A SHOTGUN
will hubby & i be loving till we age? NOT THAT WE DONT LOVE EACH OTHER

some things that have been done it's done, and it was my personal decision. therefore i told myself, instead of keeping negative thoughts in the way? why not think the positive way and learn how to keep the love, sparkles in the marriage alive till we age.

when im awake alone in the nite, i think on the bed and worry abt the time when i need to deliver. in fact i've more or less decided on going for natural delivery, i wan to feel the experience @ least once in my motherhood & remember it for life. especially when i've been reading birth stories for natural birth. each time i couldnt resist but smile to myself as i read. the pain was often commented will-paid, when the baby is out. when the gynae place the baby on your tummy, when the daddy cuts the umbilical cord. when you hear the baby first cry, tt when reality hits you that you're finally a mummy yourself.

after all the reading, it really gave me alot of encouragement. to enjoy my pregnancy journey, to go natural knowing that hubby will definately go in with me and stay by my side (while i shout, scream, bite him, cry). i know he will not leave me for a sec, and we'll definately welcome our baby together with our warm arms.

i wonder why im felt with so much emotions today.

i've decided not to look back or regret no matter
even though i might be one step to failure
i will still give it my best
even though i might have once regret
but i will still continue to say that i love you till the end
walking hands in hands
through good & bad

hubby & baby, I LOVE YOU